I am addicted to food. I am addicted to the feeling food gives me when it enters my mouth. I am constantly thinking of my next fix even when I am full and I get a rush thinking of all the chocolate bars and cookies I can eat. Food is my best friend and my worst enemy. Everyday I wake up, I try to start eating better, but instead it always ends up being "tomorrow".."i'll start my diet tomorrow.." I have not been able to control the way I eat for some time now and it has gotten totally out of hand. I feel like my whole world is upside down because if I cannot control what I put into my mouth, than how can I control the things in my life? I am 21 years old and what was suppose to be one of the best years of my life, I can definitely say has turned into the complete opposite. My weight has offically taken over my life. The one thing that I have realized is that I seem to dwell on the past and that is something that is holding me back from taking the first step to losing this weight. I know I can do it. I know it and I feel it in the pit of my stomach. I decided to make a blog so I can write down all the up's and down's (mostly up's hopefully) I encounter throughout my journey. I am married to this blog for better or worse from this day forward.
My goal: 30 pounds by my birthday, May 5th. Yes it is cutting it close, but I know I can do it. I need to do this for myself. I want to look in the mirror and love the way I look. So, here goes nothin...
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